How weird...

It was exactly THIS DAY last year when I stopped writing in this blog. How trippy is that? At any rate, I only started it because it was an assignment in my Beginnings class, but when I read the posts I realized I actually got a lot of thinking done here. Maybe I will start again! Who knows?

I'm living at my college this year, that's a HUGE change from when I last wrote. I've managed to get myself into tons of trouble, none of which was intentional, but it sure was necessary. I have three roommates who I love very much, even if I don't show it as much as I should. This semester is so completely different from anything I've experienced in my life, it's all I can do to keep up with my relationships and nurture them as much as possible. I really do love the people here, though. I just wish I had the time to get to know them, or at least talk with them on a deeper level. Don't you get the feeling that when people say "How are you?" they wouldn't care if you said "Crappy"?

Some friendships have deteriorated. Several, in fact. Now THAT'S a bad feeling. Especially since many of them revolved around the same event. Before this year, I didn't know how to ruin a friendship; I've had all the same friends since elementary school, for heaven's sake. I live with a girl I've known since 2nd grade! And yet, here I am, able to say,"I have screwed up big time, but God still loves me." Fix everything you can, accept the things you cannot. Some friendships have been made stronger by these tough times, and I can only pray that they continue to progress and grow.

All of that to say, I would not trade this last year for anything! I look back on all my old posts and see how little I was, how much I needed to be my own person. Compared to that tiny, scared girl, I feel like a mountain! God has gotten me this far, why should I be afraid? Despite so many bad things, there's so much good shining through. I'm finally getting into Graphic Design, a major I picked because I am considerably more decisive than I used to be. I am the lead volunteer of a great ministry where I get to tutor and mentor kids, kids that would be unable to get the help they need without my ministry. The guy I've had a crush on for years has told me that he loves me, even when I show him my weaknesses and flaws.

Faith will ALWAYS, ALWAYS prevail. Don't you forget it.